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Dec. 26th, 2022 12:52 am
26122022 a retrospective
i've been tired but im' back now. thank you for taking care of me. it is a hard time .
i have more to say.
the vigil that night was held in cigarette smoke, but he held his candle out for me. my sisters had left but despite the flowers i was safe. i was sleeping, very very much, and he had had me drink vinegar. the vinegar was old, very old, a vintage of sorts. it was a special sort. i have not, of course, had it since. but it healed me, like the waters of a roman bath, like the wine the priests would give me as a child.
Stille Nacht, heilige Nacht
Alles schläft; einsam wacht
Christ, der Retter ist da!
Christ, der Retter ist da!
but the man at my birth was not christ. he was my father. the closest i have come to holiness in my life is hearing that song, so i suppose if you want to interpret that as his presence, you may. but i do not believe he is ever going to take me away from this. life is Miracles without holiness.
i have more to say.
the vigil that night was held in cigarette smoke, but he held his candle out for me. my sisters had left but despite the flowers i was safe. i was sleeping, very very much, and he had had me drink vinegar. the vinegar was old, very old, a vintage of sorts. it was a special sort. i have not, of course, had it since. but it healed me, like the waters of a roman bath, like the wine the priests would give me as a child.
Stille Nacht, heilige Nacht
Alles schläft; einsam wacht
Christ, der Retter ist da!
Christ, der Retter ist da!
but the man at my birth was not christ. he was my father. the closest i have come to holiness in my life is hearing that song, so i suppose if you want to interpret that as his presence, you may. but i do not believe he is ever going to take me away from this. life is Miracles without holiness.