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donesinging when i first started working here. or. later? yes later no actually yes. karn would give me stickers when i did well
little bears and honey pots. paws never stuck
i really liked those stickers. i placed them everywhere. (now i have a notebook.) when i was sad, she gave me stickers that said "chin up!" or "you can do this!" and they kept me happy. and when i was afraid she held me like a mother. and it is good.
every time i run my fingers over the stickers it feels like an execution because i just want to be better. she gives them to me still. but every day i don't get one feels a tacit disapproval. a stone tossed against screaming bound limbs.
i am dramatic. but the stickers are like bandaids for the soul and not to have more more more all the time is difficult
she doesn't disapprove it's just so hard to not be loved and supported at all times every INSTANT.
ohhhh i know how you'll read into it. but this is only a sign to remind me to take my headache medications. outside my room, the lights are much brighter. the sun! and the brightness hurts my eyes and my head. and so i have it there to remind me to take good care of myself. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1hPsrR_-L9wi2SkxWeHj21IMwsoEX-I5l/view?usp=sharing
little bears and honey pots. paws never stuck
i really liked those stickers. i placed them everywhere. (now i have a notebook.) when i was sad, she gave me stickers that said "chin up!" or "you can do this!" and they kept me happy. and when i was afraid she held me like a mother. and it is good.
every time i run my fingers over the stickers it feels like an execution because i just want to be better. she gives them to me still. but every day i don't get one feels a tacit disapproval. a stone tossed against screaming bound limbs.
i am dramatic. but the stickers are like bandaids for the soul and not to have more more more all the time is difficult
she doesn't disapprove it's just so hard to not be loved and supported at all times every INSTANT.
ohhhh i know how you'll read into it. but this is only a sign to remind me to take my headache medications. outside my room, the lights are much brighter. the sun! and the brightness hurts my eyes and my head. and so i have it there to remind me to take good care of myself. https://drive.google.com/file/d/1hPsrR_-L9wi2SkxWeHj21IMwsoEX-I5l/view?usp=sharing